I guess everytime I'm nearing my menstrual period, my emotions is incontroble & my mood just snaps at everything that annoys me. I get that lonely again, feeling hopeless, useless & 'everyone-else-is-doing-better-than-me' feeling.
And his the closest to me, so he gets the first hit. I hate this. I hate that it keeps coming even when I felt like, "Hey, it's better now."
What triggers it? What? When days that financial is shit, I kept my cool & kept reminding myself, "Alhamdulillah. Be grateful. Alhamdulillah."
But this month, it came back & I blame myself for those words I regret because I sound so ungrateful.
Why am I not rich? I am actually poor & things around me tells me I am. Because I kept asking my husband to buy what 'I want.'
This depression roller coaster is killing me.
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